dephoning

recently i've felt kinda scared and sad about like, the currenty reality we live in? i sound very doomer and i dont know why im just starting to feel it now but i'm really starting to resent having my phone in a way, even though i grew up in the age where phones have been here the whole time. this distaste of phones has also come with my concerns for privacy and worry about ai but i'll discuss that in more depth in another blog.

also badgraphicghosts site really introduced me on how i could feasibly do this, so thank u to her !! AND my girlfriend for doing this with me i love yaa :D

i really want to get to a point where i'm not using my phone to scroll tiktok often or any doomscrolling like that, and more as a tool which it is very good at being !! first starting this the main thing that helped me was using the greyscale filter, i genuinely can not recommend this enough, it makes your phone so boring and less stimulating. often on the bus it makes me want to look outside at all the pretty colors that much more !! the first day with it was kinda weird, i could feel my brain actively searching for all the dopamine staring at the screen could give me. "i dont like this" repeated in my head, which is of course a good thing :P

its not that hard to break down a lot of the pieces of your phone into smaller bits. it also means u get to use older tech which i love doing!!!! for music my gf explained a lot of ipod stuff to me so at some point i want to get one, probably a classic model 5th gen. for my camera, years and years ago my brothers ex gifted me this blue kodak camera which i really love, she mightve just left it here and forgor idk lmao. and for gaming thats not that big of a problem since i dont play mobile games, i have the pc at home AND additionally i HAVE been taking my 3ds around with me or my gba sp sometimes. cant really think of any other tech id need, pedometer maybe, but theres a couple virtual pets i REALLLYYY want with a pedometer like the flower go walk or arukundesu (soon,,,) yeah thats all

to end, i think that overtime, the internet has become so intwined in every single part of our lives even when it doesnt really need to be. i want it to be a third space for me, with very specific gateways, like my pc, to enter it, and thats a big thing i hope to accomplish with this aswell!! ill probably write a new blog on this in a couple months or so if i (hopefully) continue !